i suppose the way time elapses will never be contingent to the way we wish it would.
i find that days come and go rapidly. however, just as they move quickly, they can simultaneously be achingly long. sadly, whether they’re good days or bad days; time is indiscriminate and just seems to move at whatever pace it pleases. that sucks, but i suppose there’s no point of prodding at this concept like an out of tune existential dirge.
now that i’ve set the stage in a very melodramatic and morose way, i’d like to proceed with some moments of a fun and fattening weekend. **aside from my dad being annoying, (seriously, eventually i will write a big, ranty, and hyper-aggressive post about our relationship, soon, it’s coming…).
by most standards, this weekend was pretty tame, (not that it means much, considering i’m about as exciting as instant jello). but i did have a few things to do, but, which is better than nothing and a nice prospect for someone like me.
on saturday, things were slow, i had a lot of coffee and tried to be productive (by means of applying to jobs). afterward, i went to the mall, mostly for the purpose of buying some new vans, because i destroyed my old pair during my time in Spain. sadly, most of the retail spaces that carry vans have either been gutted or are missing from the mall-scape. the visit resulted in being a bit of a sobering reminder of how the internet has killed mall culture. however, don’t mistake me for complaining, to be honest, i get terrible mall syndrome after like… 45 minutes of stumbling around any institutional and placid retail wasteland, so i’m okay with this being erased.
below i’ve attached a photo of a once-thriving foodcourt, that now only has a small smoothie kiosk and a very longstanding “Asian Chao”…(seriously this place has been in this mall for like 15 years).
i have many mixed opinions on malls in general– having been brought up in the ‘post-teen mall generation’, (aka the generation after the real ’90’s kids’– my gen. was the: ‘faux-90’s kids, who are technically 90’s babies, but for some reason still cling to the notion of being a 90’s kid, even though our cognitive noodles weren’t even fully developed’). as a result, i do think of them as a playground for my adolescent development, but only slightly, since in reality this was a very brief period of my life. not being a very essential part of anything, really.
anyway, moving on..after some errands and whatnot, i returned home and i started prepping dinner, which ended up being food my mom had given me to cook. this time it was…..some of her black bean, veggie mix that she had prepped for work. not something i eat v often, but i decided i’d make a childhood fave of mine: black bean burgers :~)
((note: i couldn’t find a photo of me eating a veggie burger as a child, but here’s one that’s equally telling)):
~ahh, these things and i go waaaay~ back, makes my soul sing! ♪(ﾉ´∀｀*)ﾉ
naturally, i made homemade fries and some salsa fresca, to accompany the burgs; (this was my way of being slightly more cultured).
overall, i was very happy with the end results, even though my blood pressure and cholesterol were screaming.
on another note….
—i sold a few things on Grailed and had my first sale on Heroine, (have i mentioned how much i dislike this name?), and that definitely helped lift my mood. also i cannot believe how much more pleasant the users on Heroine are, at least compared to Grailed! it reminded me of how decent of a place Grailed used to be, during its nascence. but whatever, good things never last lol. ((with this in mind, i’m actually thinking of setting up a little private marketplace on my own site…i may even combine it with my blog, who knows?)).
—last stream of consciousness thought: WOW i am so so so happy about that cardigan i purchased, it might even replace my shaggy N(N) cardigan as my favorite throw over piece! here’s a pic i posted on my instagram, you guys have probably seen it, but for anyone that hasn’t, here it is; also if you notice~ i am wearing my Aiko shirt from my first ‘pick up’ post! (lol does anyone actually read my blog outside of IG users? idk, but i appreciate every person who is kind enough to read about my droll life).
with that… i am out! have a lovely week, friends ٩(^ᴗ^)۶